Saturday, May 05, 2007 12:45 AM
wah, this is like my fourth entry today.
anyway.
thanks hiro for that really sweet comment. (:
always & forever.i will be here for you.it is my promise to you,for as long as i live.you know,i share your feelings.being emo and happy that you are at the same time.that's how i've always wanted to feel.but i stopped myself after awhile.after i was with you.because for all these 5 years that i've known you.you never seemed to be truly happy about anything at all.and i wanted to give my best to you. so that you could feel that this world, you see, isn't that bad afterall. (:for the past 137 days,although i can't say i've put in my very best efforts to make you happy.but i did try. i really did.shan said this to me once before,after day 137, and it goes a little something like this.if life is just everything you want it to be, then wouldn't it be boring ? (: try to look at things from a brighter point of view.maybe one day, you wont like to feel emo anymore ! ^^and if there's anything i can do,r any way that i can help.please tell me.'cause for you,i'd give my life, my heart and my soul.just to see the smile on your face. (:ily,anf.no gimmicks, no lies.all from the bottom of my heart,its true. (:that's .. really sweet.
thanks. -hugs.
i reached school at about 1pm today.
met yeeping, claudine, emilla, mark and roy for lunch @ itas.
heard some other shocking stuff again.
trusted two wrong people already.
.. rawr.
nevermind ..
believing the best in others will always be what i believe in. (:
principles of management lecture lasted from 2pm to about 3.20pm.
i graded the lecturer and failed him. =x
he totally lost us at the beginning lah!
for like 40 precious minutes please!
after that, some .. awkward stuff happened.
then i went with zixin to tampines mall to get some stuff.
after which, i met jack on bus 69.
we went to bedok,
bought some stationeries and etc.
then headed for bedok library to study.
i did my pom tutorial 2 le.
did a mindmap of lecture 2.
then i went to get books to read.
and then i tripped upon this book,
entitled
i miss you i miss you.
i read the gist at the back of the book
and it totally touched me.
"Now it's April and two girls named Cilla and Tina are home at Rosengarden (Rose Manor). They are identical twins and will turn fourteen this summer. But Cilla won't be there - soon she's going to be killed in a traffic accident. That's the most horrible thing that's ever happened to me, and I'm telling it right away because this isn't meant to be an exciting story with a clever ending that has to be kept secret until the last page. This is about Tina, who was left behind and had to try to stand up straight and keep her balance in life without Cilla. And the one who's telling this story is me, Tina, but I know I can't manage to talk about 'me,' so I'll say 'her' instead."so .. sad.
"She runs off, finds Lotta and Sandra, leaves the hospital - away, away, she never wants to go there again, never as long as clocks go forward, never as long as time and life can't be turned back."tell me you feel the sadness she felt.
because i kept wanting to cry while reading it!
okays. i really feel like blogging.
but my eyelids are like super heavy. x_x
i've been straining my eyes since i started using the computer 3 hours back.
rawr.
going out with darlings tomorrow!
so yah, should be quite fun. (:
for the past five years,was i really never truly happy? ..
